Lately my life has been "if it can go wrong, it will go wrong." and no this note isn't a poor me note. Its the facts. lol. Lets see, within the past 5 months a friend has died, I have gotten in to two car accidents, been to the hospital, taken someone to the hospital, almost gotten evicted,almost got towed, got a new car which a week later a tire exploded while I was on the highway, two friends got arrested, someone threw a glass bottle at me and my car while I was driving, someone almost hit me three times, I almost got fired for something I did not do and last but not least my cell phone broke three times, and during its broken moment I got stranded on the highway without any form of help for 30 minutes. Also, it has been WWIII in my apartment because of differences that cannot be fixed.

On top of all of this, I am expected to fulfill all of these obligations that I cannot possibly do especially in the fragile condition that I am in. Lately I have lost all interest in doing...anything. I feel like I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning and half the time I cant make it to the classes that I want to attend due to the previously mentioned incidents. I'm still not over the death of a dear friend, and ever since he died, I have lost all interest in everything. I have to work harder than ever before to even enjoy the small things, I have to try my best every day to get on with my life.

It doesn't help that I feel like a giant failure because I left my previous college for the community college, and ever since my family has treated me somewhat differently. And in the end this lethargy that I have been feeling is going to screw me in the end and make it so I cant ever go anywhere else. I need a change and I need help for that change. I need someone to get on my ass and help me light the fire under my ass that has long gone out.

I want to be anywhere but here, doing anything but what I am doing.